Race - I ran hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’ am leading a life of my own,
Waking up to big dreams in the dawn,
Assuring myself that rosier is the road ahead,
Momentary is this fight to earn bread.
My dreams will come true, faith on almighty is firm
No Confidence on my ability, I affirm and confirm,

I say my prayers to every known deity,
Confess, tried to also bribe them with a fifty,
Never missed to give alms to a beggar,
To the already served coffee, I add some sugar,
Never did I miss to pray while passing a temple,
Church, Mosque or Gurudwar, praying is simple.
Which race am I running time and again?
Putting efforts not knowing what’s my gain?

To the office, I am always on time,
Except for work gave nothing a dime,
Tried my best to impress the boss,
Managed my appraisal from going for a toss,
Never hesitated to crush someone under my feet,
So as to realize my dreams & enjoy the sweet
Success comes with a mix of losses and gains,
Increases money, anxiety and intense pains,
Which race am I running time and again?
Which neither had fun nor did it remain.

I have accumulated vast amount of wealth,
But not a single heart to pray for my health,
I have planned well for my retirement,
But forget to think about my life’s betterment,
Wanted to say to myself rosier is the road ahead,
But, do I justify what I have gained - success or bread?
Today, When I sit back and look at my past,
Family, Friends and even my love is lost,
Which race am I running time and again?
Which neither had love, truth or a companion

One thought keeps bugging me & haunts like a ghost
I miss what I lost; don’t cherish whatever I host.

Vroommmmmmmmmmmmmm..............................thud, hud, ud, ddddd........STOP